Finding you…

Question…

Have you ever thought about who you are and your purpose on this earth?

Has that thought really ever crossed your mind? Have you made your mark and kept to you?

Quite often people tell me that they’ve never met someone like me. I don’t know how to respond to that – but I certainly LOVE HEARING IT! Never have I not wanted to be myself…

I’ve had difficult moments in life, but I have always been ME. Yes, I tended to my bad habits, and loved learning about myself in the process we call “life”.

I’ll always be truthful, real and stubborn. Being stubborn, sho I can’t stand it, but you can be assured that you’re getting the real deal. The REAL ME!

Be proud of who you are. Be YOU! Remember, you only get one shot! Do not miss your chance to blow…(You know the rest)

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Like really?

You know that song – “count your blessings, name them one by one!”

It got me thinking as I lay in bed, so many people have gotten so use to God blessing them, that is has become an expectation. Not something God will do from time to time or when you need it but like if he doesn’t come through then he isn’t the God you know him to be or thought he was!

Is that really how you are going to think? How can you even get yourself to think that way. You don’t even work to archive something because you just like “oh no my God will provide!” STOP!!!! Someone says “Go get a job”, no my God will provide me with one, “Oh no I don’t need to work hard”, my God will increase my salary!

I just can’t deal, get it right people!!

“blessing

ˈblɛsɪŋ/

noun

1 God’s favour and protection.”may God continue to give us his blessing”

2 synonyms:

3 protection, favour “may God continue to give us his blessing”

4

◦ a prayer asking for divine favour and protection.”a priest gave a blessing as the ship was launched”

◦ grace said before or after a meal.

synonyms:

◦ benediction, dedication, consecration, invocation, commendation, prayer for someone, intercession; grace, thanksgiving, thanks; kiddush; archaicorison “they received a special blessing from a Catholic priest”

I feel people actually need to read the dictionary more or maybe the Bible!

Anyway that is my five cents…

Marriage

dream wedOkay guys hear me out on this one…

I am no expert on marriage nor have I ever been married but my gosh, marriage these days is just not like it used to be!

1st – People don’t work things out anymore, they give up not knowing it probably could have been sorted out. So they choose the easy way out, without knowing what could have been.

2nd – Divorce has become such a common thing, people are like aggg… We can get married and if it doesn’t work out, we can just get a divorce – like are you mental man??? Why put yourself through that? Why get engaged just rather say; “you know what, I love you but love just isn’t enough for us and we know things are not working, so let’s save each other the hurt!” This is so much better than falling for someone who isn’t in love with you or you might not be fully committed.

wall3rd – Why do we cheat??? Why man, you choose to be faithful before God and the people at your wedding and most importantly your partner, why do you now wanna bring some other vibe into your marriage because in all honesty, it’s just negative and going to mess up your marriage. Like if you not ready for marriage, DON’T DO IT!!

4th – We need to be able to be open and honest because keeping secrets in marriage is so dumb! Why? You choose to be with this person forever and why would you even think of lying? You going to get caught.

5th – Why are we choosing marriage as a safety option? To keep that person? Trust me, if they don’t want to be with you, the marriage will fail and you will probably be doing the above mentioned because you are comfortable and just settling!!! No man you stealing someone else’s happiness and life partner. STOP IT!!!

weddHonestly, I am sooo scared to get married because the examples being set these days are just disgusting! I don’t want to fear marriage, I don’t want to feel as if my marriage will one day be a flop, because OH HELL NO!! If it ain’t working tell me. If you cheated, tell me and leave. If you don’t see a future, it’s okay. If all you can do is lie – bye bye honey. If I am the safe option, I’m walking away!!!

We deserve a kind of marriage where we can’t wait to get home, love each other after an argument, cuddle up and be cute together. Not hold a grudge, surprise each other, work on us daily, fall in love with the simple things, laugh uncontrollably together and just flourish – I mean I don’t know what kind of marriage you want but damn, I will not choose a dead one…

Please excuse my vent, I just want us to look forward to a life with someone one day and to find a blessed and true kinda love ❤

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Dress – My mom wore 34 years ago

Photography – Carlo Daniels

Moments…

Life has moments! We are able to capture them in many different ways such as;

  • Photography
  • Written experience
  • Video tape
  • Music

But what I find so crazy is that when we are in the moment, we are never truly in the moment.

Let me give you some content here : a first date. Oooh some juice ha ha, focus Tiffany. You can see I’m already nervous.

So you get asked out on a date, pause. Do guys even know what girls do just to empress themselves? Then again we ladies don’t know what they are doing. We all Hush hush!

Anyway, so you get to the date, you sit down and your mind races. ” Oh my word do I look okay, like do I have lipstick on my teeth, wow my head is itchy, this dress is so tight I need to fart (okay maybe that is just me) but as we females are all thinking this, your date is like “she gave me a chance, she is sooo beautiful (heart eyes) I am so lucky, thank you Lord”.

Feel I was getting all weird there but what I actually meant by saying all of this. We tend to not enjoy the moment to it’s fullest. If we could just take note of how she was being admired by her date, she would have possibly had a better time.

Another example, that you will never forget moments that have made you smile. If it was a dumb joke, where to this day you still laugh about it! Some of you are laughing right now! Ha ha ha ha

Okay one more, I promise. So going to a concert or festival. Oh my word it annoys me so much when people take their phones out and record everything and forget to just make memories and enjoy the moment man. Yes it’s good to look back at those memories but if you had just been in the moment it would have been soo much better. I guess that’s just me!

Maybe I am talking to much but I really think that if we live our moments or experiences to the fullest, more smiles, laughter and love will be shared.

Forget the worry and stress, happiness is on the way…

Hurt people, hurt people

Laying in bed at 4am in the morning, one hour passed the so called “ witching hour” and it was as if my thoughts had become real and were bouncing off the walls. Okay, what am I talking about? So what kept me up? One thing came to mind.  WHY do people hurt each other?  Not physically but emotionally?  What’s there to gain from all of this?  What is the point? 

Anyway, let me continue with what I want to share with you today.

Lately, I have found myself watching a lot of emotional shows, series, movies and believe me or not, I have actually read a book for once.  Lol.  The book was about how people feel but never really say out loud!  It is made up from mostly pain or hurt or wish the person never left.  Wait, let’s be honest, it never ends good and it’s not a pretty sight.

Let me explain.

Example number 1:  Someone in your life never really acknowleges you and at the same time, they can go days without talking to you.  Sometimes a simple message is enough to keep you holding on to whatever you think you might still have!  Some people just don’t make time for you but yet they still convince you otherwise.  Or maybe a random message to show you they still care.  But when the day comes where you have a face to face conversation and the right words keep you holding on to “something” yet the days go by and nothing comes from it. Nothing happens. Time goes by and feelings die to the point where you wonder, “do I even matter???”

Example number 2 : you have friends; the kind you think will have your back through it all but seems to always find a way to selfishly benefit from whatever they feel this friendship is based on.  You don’t notice it until just one day they take off their masks and show you their true colors! Bare in mind you have never been different, you always stick to what you know, which is you being the same person day in and day out.   What sucks is you not knowing what has been going on behind your back, feeling used and abused but never speak up.  What do we do?  We allow it to happen because if you say something you will end up having no friends. 

Example number 3 : falling in love to quickly (also, there is no rule in life that says there is a timeline to this).  What are all the of the signs that make up all of this?  Drive, love, acknowledgement, passion, friendship, physical and mental needs!  It was all there yet you kept me where you wanted me to be.  Never pushing boundaries or going over your limit!  Always keeping me “in check” and never allowing me to get out of hand because that’s too embarrassing.  What if I just want to be me?  What then?  

Example number 4 : Body Image.  Oh my gosh where do I start with this one?  Let’s look at a few of those day-to-day kind of comments. Like those comments that shouldn’t be heard or should never been said in the first place.  I mean, yes I am guilty of this from time to time.  Let’s look at the following;  Some gym junkies (not all of them) throw random comments at you like: “Oh when are you going to the gym, you never take pictures at the gym, do you really go?” OR always comment like “oh you went, I am so proud of you!”  You start asking yourself, “Does my curves with a little fat not look good enough?” Or “Do I need to squat more cause I am losing the shape of my ass?”  My ass is always gonna be there asshole!  It may not be defined or shaped how you think it should be but it’s never gonna go away asshole! Agggg, it  just works on my nerves!

Okay so I may have gone a bit to far with this post but these are my thoughts in writing.  Yes, I am being as open as possible.  But how people hurt other people cause that is all they know, makes me feel sad and empty.  They don’t really know what love is and when it comes their way, they push it away because it’s not a natural thing or a familiar thing for them. They just don’t want it. Others hold onto it but it never lasts because eventually they just don’t know how to handle it.  They hurt others without realizing it or use the hurt caused by someone else and using it to hurt others in this world.   

We all have a choice in this, let’s love and not hurt!!!

Not true…or is it?

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It’s so hard to believe someone when they have betrayed you or were disloyal to you! I mean there is this saying “you cannot unsee the truth!” For me it’s like soooo true like you will never forget the truth and the lies don’t really matter!

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I mean come on, if someone lies to you and the truth comes out shooo, that is a different ball game!

My biggest hate is when someone will tell you that Sally is a really horrible person to be around and then you met Sally and she like so sweet a great laugh! Just because Sally wronged the person who told you she’s crappy, now you have to act the same way, NOT TRUE!!

We are old enough I make our own decisions well most of us bwhahahaha

A liars worst enemy is a person with an amazing memory – food for thought!

Why live in the dark, when the truth is just so much better and brighter. Make a choice to you wanna live a lie or be true to you and who you are!

Truth never damages a cause that is just…

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Photography – Jason Myles

T-shirt – Dutch Afro

Glasses – Third eyewear

Necklace – Askmetoshop

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