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Single life…

Sometimes I wonder why I am still single, why I haven’t found the “one”? Yet everyone I know has or is dating, happily married, all in love or having babies.

I think maybe I am just not ready for true love, I have not healed from past hurt or maybe they just can’t handle me!!

You see I have been single for a while, saw a few guys for a little bit but I can honestly say single life is crazy and hectic! You constantly ask yourself questions, feel like you wanna cuddle but can’t, really really really REALLY feel like a kiss but don’t wanna kiss anyway cos you don’t want complications, not sure if you should flirt with someone that messages you, never really wanna go out because who would you meet and what if they hurt you or you sit in bed crying cos you feel lonely!

Don’t get me wrong, I have my ups with being single, not having to worry who you go out with, getting up in the morning and not having to discuss what you wanna do for the day, been able to eat whatever you want because dating makes you wanna look good next to your partner, phone bill not that high on cute calls lol or having to stress that today you just gonna be meh and not have to put on a smile for the next person.

But most of all being single has made me love me more, doing things for me when I need that boast, I am more confident now than I was! Not 100% confident but much more, I have learnt that things may not always go the way you plan but you learn along the way and I am loving it… 

I mean I’d enjoy being loved and be called someone’s girlfriend again but Imma reap the benefits of being single for now…

So to the next one, when I fall I hope you ready to catch me…

Scars to your beautiful x

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So the first time I had heard this amazing song I honestly just sat and CRIED so much because every line in the song is so true for so many women in the world and we totally need to just go crazy and believe in ourselves…

This is the beginning of the song and it just hits you.

She just wants to be beautiful

She goes unnoticed, she knows no limits

She craves attention, she praises an image

She prays to be sculpted by the sculptor

Oh, she don’t see the light that’s shining

Deeper than the eyes can find it

Maybe we have made her blind

So she tries to cover up her pain and cut her woes away

‘Cause cover girls don’t cry after their face is made

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Oh, you’re beautiful, oh, you’re beautiful
And there’s a hope that’s waiting for you in the dark

You should know you’re beautiful just the way you are

And you don’t have to change a thing, the world could change its heart

No scars to your beautiful, we’re stars and we’re beautiful

Oh-oh, oh-oh

And you don’t have to change a thing, the world could change its heart

No scars to your beautiful, we’re stars and we’re beautiful

When I decided to do this post, I honestly just kept overthinking, what are people gonna say, I have way to little clothes on, my body image shouldn’t be in pictures like this, why would I even think of doing this! And I realized it wasn’t actually people, it was me!! Me, myself and I are the worst crit to self image! I put myself down on a daily bases and then social media just adds to it! Looking for attention or should I say confirmation to be “beautiful” but when someone compliments me, I never truly believing the person or take it in!

I told the Photographer, listen I know this is something you will probably be shocked to here me say but this is why I wanna do for this shoot!

We did a few images and I stood there in disbelief, looking at myself and actually thinking “wow Tiff you really are beautiful and your curves look great!” Still trying to look for the flaws of course!

And I wanted to write this post to make women understand that we as females need to be our biggest supporters! We need to be the ones telling ourselves we beautiful, giving off confidence, shining even when we feel dull, making a statement wherever we go, putting ourselves out there as if we are a Model because we can be!! We are all beautiful in our own way…

So with that being said make this song your anthem!!

Scars to your beautiful x

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Song – Scars to your beautiful

by Alessia Cara

Photography – Carlo Daniels

Je suis amiée

So I decided to get another tattoo but never really want to put anything on my body that is just for fun, however needs to have a great amount of meaning to me as it will be there for life!!

Let’s get a little bit deep just for a moment. My reason for the tattoo I had gotten on my Thigh is due to the fact that I don’t feel I am worthly of LOVE most times of my life, I have been in long term relationships/friendships and after a few years it ends and I just feel like I won’t ever have that REAL LOVE. Although I feel like I actually people LOVE fully. At times I know I don’t I will admit but yeah we all know when he/she just isn’t the one. My tattoo is in FRENCH – JE SUIS AIMÉE which means I AM LOVED. I choose french as I do feel it can be so romantic and it is called the language of LOVE heeeyyyyyyy lol.

Since I have had the tattoo I can honestly say looking st it daily makes me constantly feel that someone out there LOVES me for me, whether I know the person of not. I know someone does or at least I hope.

 

Thank you to the amazing team at Sleight of hand for the crazy experience and laughter throughout my sit down, I love my tattoo so much ❤ I will see you again soon 🙂

P.S if you can see I got a small tattoo on my wrist.  I had gotten this with the beautiful lady in my picture above which symbolizes our relationship together which has not ended and if yet to unfold, We got matching tattoos 🙂 love her to bits

Timing…

So I have come to learn that timing is not only such an ass but if not right can really make something beautiful into something completely ugly or just let it slide when it really shouldn’t…

Like for example you wanna buy an apartment/flat, you have all the information and a housemate to live with, funds is not a problem and you just can’t find a place what so ever. Nothing is affordable or you can’t find something of value in the places you have seen, TIMING…

Easy example a guy and girl fall for each other and it would be perfect,When you with each other nothing matters yet work gets in the way, friends and family, responsibilities, work opportunities or even just a simple I don’t think I can see you today is to hectic, TIMING…

You really want to buy a really expensive pair of sneakers but all you can afford at the time is simple pair of flats but if you just waited a few days you would have the money but they only have your size right now and it the last one, TIMING…

You have been trying so hard to get that job at work, you work hard, you do everything that is asked you, go above and beyond, stay extra hours, heals whenever it is needed yet the job just never has a position available, TIMING…

I’m sure I could type up every senorio when timing just isn’t right but that won’t solve anything. It will just get more people anxious and it would be way to much to read! 

Timing is so crazy these days honestly I have learnt so much about being patient (I’m still learning) however sometimes you just have to appreciate the now because in all honesty when the moment is 100% correct you will truly be grateful for the TIME…

Photography – Carlo Daniels

struggle is real…

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You ever have a feeling that you stuck in something you feel you cannot get out of yet you know you shouldn’t be in it???

It could be a friendship, work place, hotel room or even a family gathering.

I have come to learn that you are the only person that can change that exact situation, no-one else can do it for you. You can be encouraged to move on and turn away, yet you hold the power to actually follow through with the advise given.

Ask yourself these questions :

  • Look at what is bad or not right about the situation
  • Find out what is keeping you there and why?
  • Would it be worth it in the long run?
  • What have people been saying to you, should I listen or just push it a side
  • Should I stay or should I go?
  • In which way will I benefit
  • Can I solve it or will it just get worse if I try?
  • Am I truly happy?

If most of the questions are answered in a negative way GET OUT, as you will be hurting yourself more than anything. To be honest we all deserve to be happy and never have to find ourselves in a situation where we are not ourselves or find that we are just trying to survive or get through the day.

Save yourself from the drama, you deserve better!!!!

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Photography – Carlo Daniels

what’s your coffee???

My love for coffee is a never-ending story…

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I have got my favourite stores that I go to but I am not scared to try something new. The difference is that when you find the one ❤ it’s really hard to change your mind or to be like are yeah let’s try something else… I feel like I will be cheating on my favourite cup if I go somewhere else you know??? I am not sure if you feel the same but maybe about something different, like favourite restaurant, drink, shoes, outfit or car… It is so hard to have a little change. Although change is good, it is hard to actually allow it to happen.

I have 3 favourites store and my favorite drink at that store :

Deluxe Coffee works for a Cortado

Rosetta Roastery for a Flat white

Seattle Coffee for a Seattle Freeze

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What’s your favourite place to have coffee maybe I will pop in and have a taste…

Photographer – Gidion Felix

misfit – my first tattoo

On the 8th April this year, I decided to take the plunge and got a tattoo… After much deliberation on what to get, how it should look, where it can be placed, the size and of course, if it’s a picture or script. I had finally found EXACTLY what I wanted. This had not taking a few months but a few years!!!

I had finally decided on the word MISFIT and a paw print as I am obsessed with lions of cause.

What the word MISFIT means to me and why I chose it : Do you possibly have a lifetime for me to truly show you what this word could describe and shape who I truly I am?

Probably not so I will try my best to explain how much I love being a MISFIT lol.

All my life I have found myself NOT fitting in with anyone, yes I had my group of friends, yet I always stood out or had some weird way of being noticed. I have had my fair share of trying to fit in, yet found myself losing who I truly I am and I didn’t like that. I don’t think that I fit in with my family, sometimes my friends, my work place or even just when I walk in a crowd. YET that is me, a misfit never wanting to be like everyone else, being who I was truly put on this earth to be. Being able to spot me a mile away cos I’m different in a good way.

With that being said I got the word MISFIT and a paw print on my rib cage as it is the worst place to get a tattoo! As the word has so much meaning and I wanted to show it off. So when you see it you will ask and I get to express a side of myself to you that you may not know as if yet.

What’s funny is that people who know me basically tell me when they see it “YEAH that explains you to the T” I just laugh as I know exactly what they mean.

I think one thing every has asked me is, “oh my word you have a tattoo and then flip was it not sore???” To be honest it is a weird feeling but I think I handled it really well. The closer the lines got to my chest the more pain I felt. The final line I honestly felt like the tattoo artist was about to kill me boobs but it went by so quickly I just bit down and took the pain.

It did take a bit of convincing for my tattoo artist to do my ribs as my first tattoo. They advised most people die half way through as it is one of the worst places to get a tattoo, so I was very proud of myself for going though with it.

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That is my story of my first tattoo, can’t wait to tell you the next ❤