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Timing…

So I have come to learn that timing is not only such an ass but if not right can really make something beautiful into something completely ugly or just let it slide when it really shouldn’t…

Like for example you wanna buy an apartment/flat, you have all the information and a housemate to live with, funds is not a problem and you just can’t find a place what so ever. Nothing is affordable or you can’t find something of value in the places you have seen, TIMING…

Easy example a guy and girl fall for each other and it would be perfect,When you with each other nothing matters yet work gets in the way, friends and family, responsibilities, work opportunities or even just a simple I don’t think I can see you today is to hectic, TIMING…

You really want to buy a really expensive pair of sneakers but all you can afford at the time is simple pair of flats but if you just waited a few days you would have the money but they only have your size right now and it the last one, TIMING…

You have been trying so hard to get that job at work, you work hard, you do everything that is asked you, go above and beyond, stay extra hours, heals whenever it is needed yet the job just never has a position available, TIMING…

I’m sure I could type up every senorio when timing just isn’t right but that won’t solve anything. It will just get more people anxious and it would be way to much to read! 

Timing is so crazy these days honestly I have learnt so much about being patient (I’m still learning) however sometimes you just have to appreciate the now because in all honesty when the moment is 100% correct you will truly be grateful for the TIME…

Photography – Carlo Daniels

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struggle is real…

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You ever have a feeling that you stuck in something you feel you cannot get out of yet you know you shouldn’t be in it???

It could be a friendship, work place, hotel room or even a family gathering.

I have come to learn that you are the only person that can change that exact situation, no-one else can do it for you. You can be encouraged to move on and turn away, yet you hold the power to actually follow through with the advise given.

Ask yourself these questions :

  • Look at what is bad or not right about the situation
  • Find out what is keeping you there and why?
  • Would it be worth it in the long run?
  • What have people been saying to you, should I listen or just push it a side
  • Should I stay or should I go?
  • In which way will I benefit
  • Can I solve it or will it just get worse if I try?
  • Am I truly happy?

If most of the questions are answered in a negative way GET OUT, as you will be hurting yourself more than anything. To be honest we all deserve to be happy and never have to find ourselves in a situation where we are not ourselves or find that we are just trying to survive or get through the day.

Save yourself from the drama, you deserve better!!!!

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Photography – Carlo Daniels

misfit – my first tattoo

On the 8th April this year, I decided to take the plunge and got a tattoo… After much deliberation on what to get, how it should look, where it can be placed, the size and of course, if it’s a picture or script. I had finally found EXACTLY what I wanted. This had not taking a few months but a few years!!!

I had finally decided on the word MISFIT and a paw print as I am obsessed with lions of cause.

What the word MISFIT means to me and why I chose it : Do you possibly have a lifetime for me to truly show you what this word could describe and shape who I truly I am?

Probably not so I will try my best to explain how much I love being a MISFIT lol.

All my life I have found myself NOT fitting in with anyone, yes I had my group of friends, yet I always stood out or had some weird way of being noticed. I have had my fair share of trying to fit in, yet found myself losing who I truly I am and I didn’t like that. I don’t think that I fit in with my family, sometimes my friends, my work place or even just when I walk in a crowd. YET that is me, a misfit never wanting to be like everyone else, being who I was truly put on this earth to be. Being able to spot me a mile away cos I’m different in a good way.

With that being said I got the word MISFIT and a paw print on my rib cage as it is the worst place to get a tattoo! As the word has so much meaning and I wanted to show it off. So when you see it you will ask and I get to express a side of myself to you that you may not know as if yet.

What’s funny is that people who know me basically tell me when they see it “YEAH that explains you to the T” I just laugh as I know exactly what they mean.

I think one thing every has asked me is, “oh my word you have a tattoo and then flip was it not sore???” To be honest it is a weird feeling but I think I handled it really well. The closer the lines got to my chest the more pain I felt. The final line I honestly felt like the tattoo artist was about to kill me boobs but it went by so quickly I just bit down and took the pain.

It did take a bit of convincing for my tattoo artist to do my ribs as my first tattoo. They advised most people die half way through as it is one of the worst places to get a tattoo, so I was very proud of myself for going though with it.

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That is my story of my first tattoo, can’t wait to tell you the next ❤

J_Carter Part 1

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Getting to know Jared Carter an up coming Rapper that is blessed with an amazing voice and flow that you can listen to all day. I had an interview session with him and his manager, Neil Lasker a few weeks ago and felt like I wanted you guys to get to know him before you getting to know his music/career.

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Where are you from: Originally from Ottery, currently in Portlands Mitchell’s Plain.

How old are you: I am 25 years old, born 19 March 1991

What is the first thing you do when you wake up in the morning: Besides going to the bathroom look at my phone to see what is going on in the world.

What is your favourite colour: Black and sometimes Red.

What makes you smile: Seeing people progress in life.

What is your favourite movie: The Avengers has to be my favourite movie, I am a high marvel fan but I’m also a fan of Batman.

Have you ever cried during a movie: I  have cried for two movies, Titanic and Before we go.

If you could have a super power, what would it be? I would love to move things with my mind, so basically Telekinesis.

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Why dreads: I grew my dreads due to just liking the fact of having it but then I learnt patience. Yet I still have very little patience, at least we have a made a little progress.

What about yourself do you find the most pride: I have a lot of pride in my rap, If I hear someone better than me I’d want to be better than what I am at that moment. So I am always trying to improve my style, flow and lyrics.

What do you notice first when you meet someone: Strangely, the first thing I notice is hair. Why, I don’t know but it’s the first thing I look at.

What is the craziest thing you have ever done in our life: I once burnt the neighbour’s yard when I was living in Ottery. I then burnt out a car. BUT the craziest thing I have ever done was become a rap artist.

What is your biggest fear: I have a huge fear of heights, snakes and small places.

What is more logical to follow, you head or your heart: They say follow your heart, but sometimes that can lead you astray. I believe we should follow our brain but not to over think things. Just follow your gut, which is the feelings you cannot explain but we know we can trust it.

Describe yourself in 6 words? Real, Crazy, Kind, Optimistic, Trustworthy and Loyal.

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On my next post I will get more into detail with Jared regarding his music and how you can get a hold of it. Until then God bless xxxo

unbreakable smile

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There is this song “Unbreakable smile by Tori Kelly” and I just love it. You see there are gonna be some people that want you to do this:

“You see me hanging with my fam, but that don’t mean I’m living in a bubble
You’ll find me at church, but that don’t mean I can’t cause trouble
Stir up a little scene ’cause isn’t that what you want?
For me to mess up, so you can dress up some story”

And then this is what I would say and probably laugh afterwards:

“You’ll say that I’m naïve, like I don’t have a past,
You’re the one being deceived, I see right behind the mask
Tryna to stir me up and get me mad
I smile because happiness is all I have”

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This is what it basically comes down to, choose the friends that will put you in your place for your good and not theirs, those who actually want to see you succeed, strive to have a great laugh everyday and have a  silly fight but nothing a random “brain fart” can’t work out, a friend that will have you back even when they don’t have too and finally sometimes you have to be that friend for others or you could just be living for yourself or end up alone…

Truly find the ones who give you that Unbreakable smile 😀

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Hat – The lot

Shirt – Cotton on (Mens Department)

Top and Necklace – Mr Price

Watch – Casio

Hand Henna Tattoo – Tyla Johannessen

Song – Tori Kelly , Unbreakable smile

Photography – Kerwn Little

being a bridesmaid

I know there is a saying “always the bridesmaid never the bride” but I have always wanted to be a bridesmaid, there is just something about seeing the bride happy and seeing the journey with the bridal party.

Yes I may be completely crazy and it makes no sense to you, I may be the only person that feels this way but it would be an honour to be in a wedding standing next to the bride supporting her day and not just a number to fill a list or seat.

You see nobody wants to fill a seat, be a number or even just be a shadow in a picture. I have been to a few weddings and to be honest they say “You mean so much to us and that why we wanted you here, We wanna see you in our lives, Grow with you all and Can’t wait to have you all be by our side till the end.” That’s good and all but what it comes down to is yours and their friendship.

I have always seen a bridesmaid as a BEST friend, someone you can count on and will be there through thick and thin, will be sitting with you saying wow we messed up but I really do love you. Someone you can forgive no matter the mess up or no matter the moments you haven’t seen each other but the moments you cherish. I may not have all these traits as I am such an out spoken and straight forward person and pretty much say it like it is, most people can’t deal with that and probably the reason I have never been a bridesmaid. I have been called a BEST friend so many times but I have seen that word thrown out so easily, yet people have never taken the time to actually be one.

So basically my point is I may want to be a bridesmaid and even though I might not get the chance to be one, a girl can always dream.

#onedayabrideneverabridesmaid

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jungle business

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I have heard and seen this saying for so many weeks now “No – one can make you happier than yourself” I have sat and thought about it for a while. I mean is has basically been in my face everyday… I have always wanted someone to put a smile on my face but once the smile fades, I’m back to where I started. Instead of just making myself happy.

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I have always made other people smile and put my issues aside. I have come to learn that if I continue to do that I will basically fade away or just bottle things up way to much and blow up sooner than later. Lately I wake up in the morning and look into the mirror and say “hey beautiful, don’t forget to smile”. It really has helped me a lot. When you smile it makes you feel and look so much more welcoming to others and to yourself at times. Remember your attitude will filter out to people, it can make or break relationships and friendships.

This photo shoot really helped me find me again, be crazy and get away from all the craziness and just believe in myself. Believe that yes my blog might be small but it’s totally for me to be me and I am going to do just that.

Believe in yourself and you will get further than you expect…

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Dress and Boots – Cotton on

Hat and Glasses – Vintage lover

Necklace – Lovisa

Make up – Mac cosmetics done by Me

Photography – Gidion Felix

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